When things go right... everyone enjoys their time with one another. Bonds are built, in this very intimate profession of ours.
Not long ago, there was a post on this board, from a provider who wondered "what ever happened to XXX (put your name here)?". I am ok with that part of it. The fond memories and wondering is the natural way of this business.
I have had a client for the past year. He was coming to town once a month to do some business for just a year, there is an event to culminate the year. At that point, the client would then move on to the next city for the next year event. Well, my year with him is finally up. I didn't realize how sad I would feel knowing that he will not be back next month to catch up. Yes, I know I will see him again. However, that is not the same feeling as knowing that he will be back again. Our time has been great, sharing thoughts, meals, discussions, our lives. Last night was our last official appointment. I gave him a small gift, he gave me one. I will see him at several of this week's events, but I am so sad. I know I shouldn't be, but I feel a loss. I feel as though I am losing a close friend.
The saying goodbye has always been the most difficult part for me. I am ok when people just ride off into the sunset, but knowing they are going is rough.
Thanks for letting me share.
-- Modified on 3/29/2005 12:08:49 PM
It's always nice to see kind-hearted ladies in this business
you know, no matter what people say, it not a "penis business", it's a connection business, and sometime these connections go way beyond what we plan. Enjoy the feelings, try again.
kinda choked me up! It was a great post. When I think of all the really close friends I have made over the years, friends I thought I would always have, Hawaii, San Francisco, Detroit, etc. etc. etc. Somehow we just drifted apart. The phone calls became less frequent, then in later years the emails. They all were an integral part of my life for such a long period. I can imagine what is must be like to see someone on a professional basis, and yet, when the time is over, you feel like you've lost a friend instead of a client. Maybe it lends some credence to the opinion that you can never really divest the emotional from the physical. When you've shared one another's bodies for an extended period, maybe there will always be that kinship? I dunno? Reminds me of a poster I used to have on my wall back in the sixties:
People so seldom say I love you.
And when they do, It's either too late, or love goes.
So, when I tell you, "I love you"
It doesn't mean I know you'll never go,
Only that I wish you didn't have to!
Maybe not apropos for client/provider, but you get the idea!
The justification for high prices charged (ok, donations requested), imo, is the outrageous emotional toll exacted from each SP. I have a difficult time seeing anybody partly because I realize that I am adding to the toll. I love women and I do not like the thought of hurting them in any way.
I have no answers, other than to get out. There is an SP here in L.A. that just recently decide to get back into it, but quickly reversed course because she just couldn't exist in the dichotomy of loveless sex.
God bless you, FriendlyProvider. Please do not shut down your loving heart. Peace.
I once saw someone twice a month for two years. Then one day, she just disappeared. Hope she is doing well.
Did you try to locate her?
I asked once if anybody knew what happened to her and then let it drop. I felt it was not my position to impose myself on her. If she had wanted to keep in touch, she would have.